So stressed - can't pay rent *Update* A Little Good News About Health Issues*

[Anikaca77]

A prayer and a candle
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/...g&cid=10483305

Thank you so much.

[Anikaca77]

Well I think I've lost it officially now.

My mind is just in a big mess. I started crying at work this morning, I'm just feeling so stressed and I was super busy when I first came into work and I knew it was going to be this way but I thought in my head that I could keep things calm and cool and I didn't.

I cried. still feel like crying. Yet I'm supposed to go for my lupron shot this coming Thursday. My husband and I are not getting a long and I have no idea what's going to happen with that. Last night I was crying and again today. I really wish money was not such a big thing at times. I'm going to try not to cry for the rest of today.

Melissa

[Husky_mom]

hang in there... this too shall pass..

I know it´s easier saying it than when you are the one going through it.. but we´ll keep you in our thoughts hoping it all gets sorted out ok.. and soon...

I sent you a lil something.. not much but I hope it helps a bit

[Anikaca77]

hang in there... this too shall pass..

I know it´s easier saying it than when you are the one going through it.. but we´ll keep you in our thoughts hoping it all gets sorted out ok.. and soon...

I sent you a lil something.. not much but I hope it helps a bit

Thank you, I know it shall pass just it doesn't seem to be passing quick enough you know...well hopefully it will soon.

Melissa

[Catty1]

Do you have access to counselling through your job? Does your hubby?

Please see someone, hon, even if it is through Emerg.

HUGS!

[Queen of Poop]

Awwww sweetie, I'm so sorry. You've just got so much stress. If you can find counselling help please get some. It does wonders. If there is anything I can do to help you please let me know.

[Medusa]

It's so tough, Melissa, I know. When I was going through my dark night of the soul, I went out w/a friend and her boyfriend and right in the middle of our conversation, I broke down at the restaurant. I had no money, no job, my divorce was still fresh, I had so many outdoor cats that I was trying to rescue; it looked so bleak. Somehow I made it through. I can't say that anything cataclysmic happened to turn things around; life just kept on going and I kept on going w/it until I passed through it all. Just hold on tight until the boat stops rockin'. We're still praying for you here.

[Anikaca77]

Thank you. I'm feeling semi-better right now. My back still hurts but I've been taking my pain pills but they didn't seem to help my cramping which is why I'm taking the lupron drug in the first place but hopefully the next 2 shots will work wonders.

Thank you all for your kind words. I've been seeing a new therapist since the start of Feb. and she is wonderful and it sucks that I have to pay to see her but I really like her and they won't lower her rate or do a payment plan but I really just don't want to see anyone else at the moment. I've been trying to stay current with her.

Thank you all again for your kind words and support.
melissa

[phesina]

I lit you a candle too, Melissa, which I hope will shed a bit more light to help you get through these dark times.

I'm so sorry you are undergoing such stress. My cats and I are all sending around loads of ~~~~~PURRS~~~~ and {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} for love and easing of fears.

[Lilith Cherry]

Lots of prayers and loving thoughts to you Melissa. You will get through it and we are all here to help and listen wherever we can. Lots of love to you

[Anikaca77]

Well I just went to a doctor's appt. because back on March 12th I started moving some of my stuff out of our apartment because I thought we (my husband and I) were going to split up and I just moved a bunch of boxes around from the closet in to the dining room area and the next day my back and left knee were killing me.

It did get better by the following Tuesday so I went to the doctor and he thought maybe I had a cyst or something like that behind my knee and he recommended that I see an orthopedic surgeon and I finally had my appt. today even though my left knee is feeling better but it still hurts from time to time and my right knee has been hurting more and more as well.

So the guy came in and we talked and I explained my back issues and what not. They took some knee x-rays right there and he came back in and said he didn't know who told me about having arthritis in my right knee but there isn't anything.

I was so pleased, he showed me the x-rays and said on the left knee there is a very very small bone spure but nothing to worry about and I asked him about my back having influence on my knees and what not and he said he thinks that this is probably where my problem is from and not in the knee.

So it's good news in a way and then the other way it's not so good because my knees have been giving out on me lately which sucks but I can deal with that and the pain hurts but I guess it's just another thing I need to get used to but I'm so pleased there isn't any damage to my knees.

Melissa

[Anikaca77]

Well what was up is looking down but hopefully not for long I hope.

My husband contact this separate work program today and they were of no help at all.

I just want to thank you all who have contributed, it really means a lot and the prays and suggestions mean a lot as well.

Thank you,
Melissa

[cassiesmom]

A candle
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/...g&cid=10504851
and prayers, again...

Hugs,
elyse

[Anikaca77]

Elyse-

Thank you so much!

-Melissa

[Anikaca77]

Today I contacted the community help line that I was told to contact about them helping me but they were not very eager to help out. I don't understand. I explained the situation but he's like you can make payments to them so that sounds like you guys can make it.

I'm just thinking apparently he doesn't understand some things or something but at least I tried.

Melissa