Lorraine, it's good to see you back but so sad that you've had such a rough time of it. That's too much for nearly anyone to bear. You gave your pregnant cat and your kitten as much love as you could in the brief time that they were w/you. Buddy had a longer stint on earth which sometimes makes it more difficult, doesn't it? I know you miss his sweet face after being w/you for so long. I do hope that things stabilize for you now and that the sadness will diminish and only the good memories will remain. (((HUGS)))