I know exactly how you are feeling, as do many of us here. The lump in your throat, the ache in your heart. The doubt of if it is actually the right time and right thing to do. I still have those doubts about Taz and he's been gone for 7 months now. I know I did the right thing, but it doesn't make it any easier.
I am going through those emotions right now with you again. Tears, tight chest, shaking hands.
Hugs to you from this side of the world.
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