Thank you everyone.

My house already feels empty, even though there are 4 other critters around. Scooter Bug was truly MINE, from the moment he came to live with me around 5 weeks of age.

One morning about 7am, my ex-husband and I heard a knock on our door. It was our neighbor, Ann. And she was holding this teeny little kitten. I looked at David and said, "Don't you open that door!" And he did. I told him, "don't you take that kitty! We already have 3." And he did. The kitty was wandering around by the school bus stop, and Ann didn't want him to be left there... She had dogs and was slightly afraid of cats, but brought him to us because she knew we had a soft spot for them.

Scooter was originally named "no-name kitty" because we were not going to keep him. I also thought he was a girl (he hadn't developed very well yet). After a couple days, he became Fizgig (from a movie, The Dark Crystal maybe?). Then I noticed something odd. Every time I'd be sitting on my bed watching tv or reading, he'd get up on the foot of it and just inch his way over to where I was... he'd snuggle into my shoulder with me not even noticing and start purring. He'd bug the crap out of me. He named himself Scooter Bug. And he was my snuggle bug, my lovey bug.

When David and I split up, the one cat we were 100% sure I'd take was Scooter Bug. David said, "Scooter wouldn't survive without you." I truly believe that. He and I had a bond that was incredible. When I had him read by Nancy Efrusy, she said, "if he were human, your husband would have serious competition" and "his love for you borders on unhealthy." My love for him was just as great.

My home doesn't feel that way any longer. It feels like just a house. I lost my ability to have children b/c of a disease many years ago. Scooter Bug WAS my child. My sweet, loving, adorable, little white chinny chin chin boy.

I kissed him on top of his head after they said he was gone. I told him I loved him more than all the stars in the sky and I was so sorry I couldn't fix him.








This is where he was the happiest. Snuggled up on my shoulder.

I love you my sweet boy.