Not having eaten, battling a nasty cold, just losing your home, gee, I wonder why you're down. Don't be so hard on yourself, especially w/feelings of worthlessness. All of this was outside your realm of control. I do understand how badly you want to be back in your own place and not live at your parents' but for now, allow yourself the luxury of being warm and safe and out of harm's way. The new rental that you'll see will be just the place for you to make your new start. The old has passed away in every sense of the word. New year, new home, new life. Tough? OH yeah. But you're young and strong and up to the challenge. We're praying for you unceasingly. Keep the faythe.