What doesn't kill you makes you...? UPDATE!! Post #41

[Kfamr]

Thank you all for your support.

Today I'm feeling completely worthless but I'm hoping that goes away. I need to find myself a home and soon, hopefully.

Don't get me wrong. I love my parents. I LOVE my parents. I love their home. But it's THEIR home, not mine. I grew up here, it was my home, but I never wanted to have to move back in with my parents and sleep on their couch. I just don't want to be a burden to them. I want out. I became accustomed to having a place to myself and I LOVED it. My things are all scattered amongst their home and the storage unit. I just want everything back together in life. I feel lost.


I have an 'appointment' tomorrow to check out a duplex that my brother's landlord has up for rent. He's willing to take the security deposit in payments and work with me. So, hopefully it's in a nice area and not a dump because I don't have any other ideas as to where to go and cannot afford much.


The part that has me most upset is the fact that I was struggling already and I had plans to get my crap together, figure out finances, getting my apartment cleaned up and more organized, etc. I had just begun this process a few days prior to the fire and was so proud of myself for doing so.


Some moments I look at this situation in a good way, a new journey... but today is just a downer. I haven't eaten today just because my nerves are a wreck and I have a terrible cold. Sorry, I'm just rambling now. Thank you all again for listening.

[KYS]

That is very scary, good thing you kept your head and did not panic.
I am so glad you and the fur kids are safe. Good luck with the Duplex
tomorrow and take care of yourself. That is a nasty cold that is going around.

[Catty1]

You've been through a huge shock, no wonder you are so upset...your things are scattered all over, and so are you. {{{hugs}}}

Perhaps there might be some restitution for the renters who lost their home in the fire? Take care of yourself first, and then see what is happening in that regard.

Try a bit of soup or something, hon - slumping blood sugars can drag down a real downer.

[krazyaboutkatz]

Kay, I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling lousy. I hope that your cold goes away quickly and that the duplex is nice and in a nice area. Good luck and take care.

[Animalhouse26]

Kay, you have been through a lot the past cpl days! It will get better. Promise! Wish I had a place to offer you..But I don't. Lol I can help you look for places again..and take you to see them.. if you want me to. Just let me know. K?

[anna_66]

It's always darkest before the light...right? I'm sure things are going to start looking bettter for you.
Good Luck on finding a place.

[chocolatepuppy]

I hope you find a place soon. Hang in there.

[Medusa]

Not having eaten, battling a nasty cold, just losing your home, gee, I wonder why you're down. Don't be so hard on yourself, especially w/feelings of worthlessness. All of this was outside your realm of control. I do understand how badly you want to be back in your own place and not live at your parents' but for now, allow yourself the luxury of being warm and safe and out of harm's way. The new rental that you'll see will be just the place for you to make your new start. The old has passed away in every sense of the word. New year, new home, new life. Tough? OH yeah. But you're young and strong and up to the challenge. We're praying for you unceasingly. Keep the faythe.