Where I'm at now...something positive

[Catty1]

My goodness - the same friend?

What's she painting - McMahon??? LOL

K, let me know. :-)

[Daisy and Delilah]

How are you ladies doing? Well, I hope. Is it getting any better or easier? {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

[Queen of Poop]

Rose is away and I hope she's doing ok.

I'm trying to stay warm. Trying to deal with the crap he's pulling with regard to the divorce. Trying to deal with the wide range of emotions I'm having. I'm still not sleeping well, but had a real treat at 3:46 this morning, Diego wanted under the covers, he laid right on me and purred while he put his paw gently on my chin. It was so touching. How did he know I was having more bad dreams? I would truly be lost without Deigo and Cali.

[Alysser]

I hope you ladies are doing a little better! Mikey and I wanted to wish you a very Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

[Queen of Poop]

Thanks Mikey and Alyssa. Thanks for all the pictures and well wishes. I hope you have a very Merry Christmas.

Had a bad day yesterday. Doing better today, getting ready to head to my parents. The weather will be good for the next several days so we're going to go for an hour and a half drive north and west of Calgary to Sundre.

[rosethecopycat]

Thank you Alysser, and everyone for even taking a moment of your holiday to be thinking and posting for Gayle and myself.

I had a total meltdown this morning. I was playing a game with Bella and I grabbed her and held her.
And then I had a 'heart pain' so great, like I've never felt before in my life.
Not even when he caused all this a couple months ago, have I felt like this.
(don't listen Richard) Then came the floodgates. It was uncontrollable.

I had to get strong to make it through this day though. Can't cry and play the horn.
I played flute/sax at 2 nursing homes. The first was truly a sad place. Most of the people had no cognition left. But while I played, the director noted that he saw more 'activity' and 'interaction' from some of the people than he'd ever seen before, even if it were just more groaning than usual.
He thinks I struck a 'chord' with all the residents. Some were able to sing a long a little bit. I walked around and greeted each and every one, even if it was just a touch on the arm or eye contact and a smile.

The second place was more of an assisted living facility. The people came out from dinner with their walkers and sat in the lobby to hear the music. Yes, some were dozing off but others were attentive.
After I played several made their way toward me with the walkers to thank me.

I think I might have touched some folks today.

I made my way home and gave the kittehs a couple presents. Very hard, being alone. I was used to having a house load of people on this night. It was no 'kitteh Christmas' of years past, but I didn't want them to miss out, just like you'd feel with real children. These kittehs actually 'know' what is happening with this day.

Now, I will ring the bell, in honor of my father who passed in 2001. It's the anniversary of his birth tonight, and I will have a glass of wine.

Tomorrow, 3 nursing homes to keep me busy.

Let's hope 2010 is a better year for Gayle and myself and for anyone facing challenges here on PT.
Thank you all for your support.

Rose

[Daisy and Delilah]

Gayle and Rose, I just wanted to come here and wish both of you a Merry Christmas. I know it's difficult to face the holidays. I am wishing for 2010 to be a brand new wonderful year for both of you.
{{{{{GAYLE AND ROSE}}}}}

[Catty1]

Gayle - wishing you a safe drive north! If the weather takes a turn on your way back - or even if it doesn't - feel free to give a call if you are through here.

Rose - glad you have your furbabies. I bet you will have busy and fun Christmases in the future. I know they won't be the same. But maybe they will be better?

HUGS to both of you...the new year starts SOON.