Thank you all for your prays. My emotions seem to be more in controlled somewhat. I've only almost started crying once today at work but I was able to stop it.

My husband told me today that he can't get short term disability until he's at his current place of employment for 5 years. He can't get long-term disability unless he's going to be off for 8 month.

He can get medical leave but it will be unpaid and we will have to pay our insurance costs and oh yeah depend on my little income for paying rent and food. We haven't heard back from his food doctor yet about what's going on with his foot but I don't think he will be able to go back to work because he's still having a lot of foot pain.

My husband is feeling pretty crappy right now because he doesn't have family other than me and this time of the year is never easy for him. I'm trying to have hopes that things will work out but this time of the year I thought things were supposed to be good and happy.

I had my first hot flash yesterday afternoon but it wasn't too bad.

Thanks again for the prays,
Melissa