Where I'm at now...something positive

[rosethecopycat]

Gayle-I cannot block my email as we have to work out details, such as when he's coming to the house, and business things. If I didn't have email access, I'd have to speak to him by phone.

I am surprised to hear that you are getting even less sleep. I'm so sorry. But that is the one thing that I feel is 'way out of our control' We can make ourselves eat, and go out, work out and accomplish things. But the sleep is the elusive issue. And without sleep, we wind down.

I appreciate your support too, and all who have read the pages of our trials.

If I ever read of anybody else's pain of divorce, I will definitely be looking at it from a different perspective now. Not as an outside observer, but someone who can empathize with the pain involved. I hope that anyone else here on PT could have the courage to post about their problems. When you are alone as I am, it is a tremendous help to know that people are out there that honestly care, even though you've never seen them in person. That is awesome.

Let us find something good tomorrow....

[Alysser]

Upon hearing this I felt I should post these better quality pics I took of Mikey awhile ago for you guys rather then the one from my phone:

[rosethecopycat]

I sure am going to try Mikey!

Fank Yu!

[Queen of Poop]

Oh Mikey. If only I could. I've started having nightmares now. The last 3 nights have been horrible. I know, you need to come visit me and sleep beside me, be my inspiration!! Thank you for sharing more Mikey pictures. They sure do warm my heart.

[Karen]

Okay, Gayle - time to take charge of the nightmares - try to do that. In your dream, turn the situation around, like find yourself a way out of the burning building, etc. Try it, maybe it'll work!

Or go to sleep imagining Mikey curled beside you, ready to chase away any bad guys!

[Queen of Poop]

Will try that tonight Karen. I am hoping for a good sleep, I went out today and replaced the pillow I left behind with a brand new one, same of course. I've been test driving it this afternoon and it is amazing the level of comfort a pillow can give.

[rosethecopycat]

Okay, Gayle - time to take charge of the nightmares - try to do that. In your dream, turn the situation around, like find yourself a way out of the burning building, etc. Try it, maybe it'll work!

Or go to sleep imagining Mikey curled beside you, ready to chase away any bad guys!

I agree, but write your nightmare out and change the ending.

Has anyone ever tried to become lucid in their dream/nightmare?
I've done this, but it's only when I've fallen asleep on the couch with the TV on.
There is an extremely heightened perception, and a feeling like you can control things, like the outcome you need, if it is nightmarish.
My experience, last year, was hearing music SO vividly that I could write out the entire score instantly. I knew I was dreaming, but as soon as I woke, the music was gone.

Gayle, here's a couple articles on lucid dreaming. I think it's a good way to take control over the situation.

http://www.world-of-lucid-dreaming.c...ightmares.html

http://psychology.suite101.com/artic...top_nightmares

With as little sleep as you're getting, it really could get worse.
You don't need to dread going to sleep.

I hope it helps you.

[Karen]

I've always been able to influence the course of my dreams. Maybe it is my inborn optimism, but I have never had a nightmare. If I crisis happens, I solve it! Generally, when I awake, Paul will ask me who I was rescuing before I woke. Funny enough when it is kittens, I can snuggle them in my dreams with no allergic reaction at all!