Dear G-ma,

Well, it's midnight which means today is going to be the first Thanksgiving without you and frankly I'm scared to go to sleep. I know you're going to be watching, cuz let's face it this family could entertain circus folk, but I don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I can be surrounded by family all day while the head of the family isn't going to be there. I don't remember how long it takes me to heal but I know it isn't a year. I miss you so much at times I can't even breathe especially when I do something I know you would just love. I get a flash of your smiling face giving me that wink that I always got. That "Yep that's my sly girl. Give 'em H*** and remind them who you belong to" wink. I'm getting those flashes more and more lately. I'm still and always will be "one of Bonnie's girls". Having said that, the beginning of this letter is a lie. I can handle today because it's what we do. We stand up straight, smile (well maybe not all of us), look at what we think we can't overcome and realize that it's tiny. If we can't breathe sometimes we just learn to take bigger breathes. I will be surrounded by all of the family today cuz you're still with us.

Love ya,

Ann