Where I'm at now...something positive

[Queen of Poop]

I have to say I'm not having trouble getting out of bed. That could be because I'm sleeping on an air mattress on the floor. Best I could do at this time. I am hoping the divorce settlement will get me some furniture so I didn't want to buy other stuff. I am also a serious morning person, up between 4 and 5 every day. Cali and Diego have no qualms about making sure I know they're hungry too.

My biggest issue now are the memories that won't stop popping into my head. I am hopeful that when I see the counsellor next week she can help me deal with them and the sheer unbelief of how my life has gone. It wasn't supposed to be like this.

All the Christmas commercials on TV are killing me these days. They make me so sad. Christmas was always made a big thing by me for him and his kids. Now I don't know what to do. This one's going to be hard.

[rosethecopycat]

I have to say I'm not having trouble getting out of bed. That could be because I'm sleeping on an air mattress on the floor. Best I could do at this time. I am hoping the divorce settlement will get me some furniture so I didn't want to buy other stuff. I am also a serious morning person, up between 4 and 5 every day. Cali and Diego have no qualms about making sure I know they're hungry too.

My biggest issue now are the memories that won't stop popping into my head. I am hopeful that when I see the counsellor next week she can help me deal with them and the sheer unbelief of how my life has gone. It wasn't supposed to be like this.

All the Christmas commercials on TV are killing me these days. They make me so sad. Christmas was always made a big thing by me for him and his kids. Now I don't know what to do. This one's going to be hard.

You're right Gayle, this time of year is particularly hard to deal with.
I 'made' Christmas too, for him and his family who have always come down from Ohio, for the last 12 years. (his family spent 6-8 weeks a year at our place, in fact)

I don't want to see the decorations or hear the Christmas music, but it is next to impossible, if you even consider being in a public place.


I don't know what I'll do. It is so sad, not going to get that real Christmas tree, but I know I don't want to do it now.

Won't you spend the Holidays with your parents, Gayle?

I hope your counsellor session goes well and gives you some relief and guidance.

[Queen of Poop]

Rose, I may visit my parents at Christmas, it really depends on the roads. My mom has already made me promise if its snowing to just stay put. We lost 2 of my siblings in car accidents so she's a little paranoid, but rightly so.

I could end up here, in my little apartment with the kittens by myself on Christmas. My office closes from Dec 24 to Jan 2, long time to be home alone. Trying not to think that far ahead though.

Had a good day today. Completed gathering more info for the lawyer. Didn't get all sad over it today.

Hoping for another good day tomorrow.

[Daisy and Delilah]

Wouldn't it be terrific if you two ladies could get together at Christmas?

I can't help it. I'm a dreamer.

[rosethecopycat]

Wouldn't it be terrific if you two ladies could get together at Christmas?

I can't help it. I'm a dreamer.

Who's house can we stay at that is midway between Calgary and Orlando?

Anybody in Kansas want some holiday visitors?

[Catty1]

Hey, Gayle - I don't know what's up on the 25th. I would love to roast a free-range turkey and do the trimmings. The last few Christmases it's been just me and Mom.

You and Rose - maybe some friends will invite you over, especially if they know your situation.

Or maybe you'll get a chance to have a university student over who is too far from home to spend the holidays there.

[Daisy and Delilah]

Who's house can we stay at that is midway between Calgary and Orlando?

Anybody in Kansas want some holiday visitors?

Anybody out there willing? C'mon Pet Talkers!!