Where I'm at now...something positive

[gini]

Girls - just keep in mind that many of us are following this thread and we are behind you every step on the way. You are doing great and we are all so proud of you. You go girls!!!

[rosethecopycat]

I was just reading how PT is a happy place, and folks like to come and enjoy pictures and stories, and I always have too.

But, I am in a world of sadness now. I haven't laughed in 7 weeks. Even TV shows of happy people bring me down in a way.
I've always been happy (not particularly a 'cheery-smiley' person) but deeply content and grateful. Even with years of chronic pain, I managed to get out of bed and be thankful it's not any worse, and my husband was there, loving me. I dread getting out of bed now. I know the cats are hungry and I gotta try to make some money this day, if available to me. Other than that, I just go through the motions of life.

I appreciate a place that we can come with our not so happy news and thoughts, and the support from other people, who don't even know us, but can sympathize with our plights. Thank you all for your responses, it matters a lot if you don't have many people to talk to face to face.

[Karen]

Checking in this morning, sending you both cheerful morning thoughts - but quietly, in case you (like all my siblings and father) are not 'morning people.'

[Pinot's Mom]

You can bring your troubles here any time; we'll do what we can for both of you. I hope the "I can't get out of bed" stage is short lived, and I hope the kitties give you more comfort. They will if you let them. We're here to listen.

[emily_the_spoiled]

Rose, many of us have been at that point where getting out of bed took more energy than it was worth. I have not great words of advice, but sometimes just going through the motions of life is a start. Getting out of bed, feeding the cats (and yourself) is something to be proud of. Just take things one day at a time, or even one hour if you need to...remember we are here for you

[RICHARD]

http://lifestyle.msn.com/your-life/b...2609&GT1=32001

[Queen of Poop]

Thanks for the info Richard. Maybe it will help.

For the most part I had a good day today. Until I was riding the train home, listening to my ipod. I started thinking again how unbelievable this whole thing is. Now I'm in a bit of a funk.

Tomorrow my task is to finish my list of the acreage house and what is there.

Not thinking there will be alot of sleeping tonight.

[Alysser]

Mikey wanted to send a message to you and Rose:


His note says
' Feel better and sleep like dis

-love mikey'



FEEL BETTER and try and sleep

[Medusa]

For the most part I had a good day today. Until I was riding the train home, listening to my ipod. I started thinking again how unbelievable this whole thing is. Now I'm in a bit of a funk.

This will probably happen for quite some time but as time goes on it will be easier to dismiss it from your mind. I've been divorced nearly 14 years and I still have those moments. Really, though, what else can we expect? Our lives have changed dramatically and when it first happens, we're in such a state of upheaval that we don't know which end is up. Your equilibrium will come w/time and memories won't sting as much. Actually, believe it or not, you'll have good memories to look back on and there won't be as much of that "unbelievable" feeling. It'll come. You're doing great. Keep the faythe.

[Queen of Poop]

I have to say I'm not having trouble getting out of bed. That could be because I'm sleeping on an air mattress on the floor. Best I could do at this time. I am hoping the divorce settlement will get me some furniture so I didn't want to buy other stuff. I am also a serious morning person, up between 4 and 5 every day. Cali and Diego have no qualms about making sure I know they're hungry too.

My biggest issue now are the memories that won't stop popping into my head. I am hopeful that when I see the counsellor next week she can help me deal with them and the sheer unbelief of how my life has gone. It wasn't supposed to be like this.

All the Christmas commercials on TV are killing me these days. They make me so sad. Christmas was always made a big thing by me for him and his kids. Now I don't know what to do. This one's going to be hard.

[rosethecopycat]

I have to say I'm not having trouble getting out of bed. That could be because I'm sleeping on an air mattress on the floor. Best I could do at this time. I am hoping the divorce settlement will get me some furniture so I didn't want to buy other stuff. I am also a serious morning person, up between 4 and 5 every day. Cali and Diego have no qualms about making sure I know they're hungry too.

My biggest issue now are the memories that won't stop popping into my head. I am hopeful that when I see the counsellor next week she can help me deal with them and the sheer unbelief of how my life has gone. It wasn't supposed to be like this.

All the Christmas commercials on TV are killing me these days. They make me so sad. Christmas was always made a big thing by me for him and his kids. Now I don't know what to do. This one's going to be hard.

You're right Gayle, this time of year is particularly hard to deal with.
I 'made' Christmas too, for him and his family who have always come down from Ohio, for the last 12 years. (his family spent 6-8 weeks a year at our place, in fact)

I don't want to see the decorations or hear the Christmas music, but it is next to impossible, if you even consider being in a public place.


I don't know what I'll do. It is so sad, not going to get that real Christmas tree, but I know I don't want to do it now.

Won't you spend the Holidays with your parents, Gayle?

I hope your counsellor session goes well and gives you some relief and guidance.

[Queen of Poop]

Rose, I may visit my parents at Christmas, it really depends on the roads. My mom has already made me promise if its snowing to just stay put. We lost 2 of my siblings in car accidents so she's a little paranoid, but rightly so.

I could end up here, in my little apartment with the kittens by myself on Christmas. My office closes from Dec 24 to Jan 2, long time to be home alone. Trying not to think that far ahead though.

Had a good day today. Completed gathering more info for the lawyer. Didn't get all sad over it today.

Hoping for another good day tomorrow.

[Daisy and Delilah]

Wouldn't it be terrific if you two ladies could get together at Christmas?

I can't help it. I'm a dreamer.