Where I'm at now...something positive

[Queen of Poop]

Good going Rose. Now you're the "pool girl"!!!! Way to go!! I'm sure you'll do a much better job at it than he ever did.

Moving furniture sounds like a great idea. Out with the old way in the the new "Rose" way.

My friend Anne called this afternoon, she said she could take me for my colonoscopy in December and asked if I could help her paint next weekend.

What I am truly enjoying is having the TV all to myself. No more watching reruns of half hour sitcoms over and over again. Can't get enough CSI, Criminal Minds and football/hockey.

Wish though that I could stop the mini movies that have been plaguing my mind today. Little flicks of bad times. They invade when I least expect them. They are annoying me to no end.

[Queen of Poop]

Thanks for your support Richard!!

Actually, thanks to everyone here for your support. You'll never know how much I've appreciated the comments. How when I'm down I read thru them all again and regain strength to continue.

But you're not born alone, mom was there. And for me, she continues to be there. We talk every day, sometimes twice a day. I can't thank her enough for everything she's done and doing for me.

[RICHARD]

But you're not born alone, mom was there. And for me, she continues to be there. We talk every day, sometimes twice a day. I can't thank her enough for everything she's done and doing for me.

Mom will always be there, I miss my mom's advice, admonishments, her voice, laugh and I'd really like for someone to get 'angry' with me and tell me to (go home and) GO TO SLEEP.

Now?

I am by myself and have to be happy, disgusted, tough on and harsh on me.

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Yep, having the remote all to yourself effing ROCKS!

[Karen]

Richard, shall I just tell you "portate bien?" Or is that your Dad's job? I bet you hear your mom's voice echoing inside your brain still, and likely always will! Me, I don't look like my mom, but I laugh like her, strangely enough!

Gayle, Rose, glad you are both doing well.

[RICHARD]

Richard, shall I just tell you "portate bien?" Or is that your Dad's job? I bet you hear your mom's voice echoing inside your brain still, and likely always will! Me, I don't look like my mom, but I laugh like her, strangely enough!

Gayle, Rose, glad you are both doing well.

I identify a little with the gals.

Mom left, I am saddled with a house, 'kids' and a desire to look into the future. Funny you mention DAD! He would have been 90 today and still would have said little about anything.

But, he would have been 'on guard' for me. That male sentinel, watching everything I do and shaking his head when I did something stupid, then went to him for advice!

Now? I have to figure things out for myself.

It's an club we all belong to eventually. We just have to pay the dues!



P.s. I have to laugh because I still can see him shoot me the "What are you doing" look when I brought him a simple problem that had me totally perplexed. Me voy a portatme bien.

[sparks19]

ahhh you picked good shows

when the bad thoughts creep in... turn up the volume

[cassiesmom]

when the bad thoughts creep in... turn up the volume

Sometimes I try the radio when my mind starts on those bad thoughts. Don't know why but that seems to make them slow down.