Where I'm at now...something positive

[Queen of Poop]

Had alot of difficulty yesterday accepting the reality of what's gone on. Doing better this morning. It will be nice when the ups and downs even out some.

[rosethecopycat]

Had alot of difficulty yesterday accepting the reality of what's gone on. Doing better this morning. It will be nice when the ups and downs even out some.

Same here, Gayle.
I am in the sheer disbelief mode this morning, after two days of disgust.

[Queen of Poop]

My accomplishments today:
Bought a floor lamp and put it together all by myself. It has glass shelves and its pretty cool.
Went to a local mall and met my friend from Medicine Hat for tea.

A good day for me.

How was your day Rose?

[rosethecopycat]

My accomplishments today:
Bought a floor lamp and put it together all by myself. It has glass shelves and its pretty cool.
Went to a local mall and met my friend from Medicine Hat for tea.

A good day for me.

How was your day Rose?

My dear neighbor was showing me how to maintain the swimming pool. I was scrubbing the sides, cleaning the filter, adding chlorine, etc. All things my 'husband' has left me holding the bag with.
Then we cut back the neighbors shrubs and I made a dinner for us.
It felt good to be with another person, conversation, chit chat.
One less day of being completely alone, is how I have to look at it.

Tomorrow we are going to move furniture around, and I am going to switch bedrooms.

Nice to hear you had a good teatime, Gayle.
I had two cuppas with my British neighbor fellow today.

[RICHARD]

I have been following this thread and want to ask Rose and QoP a question.

This question was posed to me once-I got the point quickly.

It didn't eliminate the sting of a person downgrading the relationship.
Matter of fact, it made me laugh and I've 'carried' the advice/lesson in my heart since then.


Ready?

Were you born alone?

It's not meant as an insult......My mom told me that years ago when I was all bent out of shoot over a woman.

Yep, I was born alone.


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Both of you are going to be measured by what happens in the next few months. You have opened up to the PTers here and you may have made a mistake.

We EXPECT the both you to get thru this and prove to us and yourselves that you will survive.

Life effing sucks today.

I am betting it may suck tomorrow.

And maybe Monday will suck even more.
It's only a temporary thing.

Every day won't suck.


Really, how can things suck when your pool is clean and you cleaned it better that the previous pool 'boy'?

[Queen of Poop]

Good going Rose. Now you're the "pool girl"!!!! Way to go!! I'm sure you'll do a much better job at it than he ever did.

Moving furniture sounds like a great idea. Out with the old way in the the new "Rose" way.

My friend Anne called this afternoon, she said she could take me for my colonoscopy in December and asked if I could help her paint next weekend.

What I am truly enjoying is having the TV all to myself. No more watching reruns of half hour sitcoms over and over again. Can't get enough CSI, Criminal Minds and football/hockey.

Wish though that I could stop the mini movies that have been plaguing my mind today. Little flicks of bad times. They invade when I least expect them. They are annoying me to no end.

[Queen of Poop]

Thanks for your support Richard!!

Actually, thanks to everyone here for your support. You'll never know how much I've appreciated the comments. How when I'm down I read thru them all again and regain strength to continue.

But you're not born alone, mom was there. And for me, she continues to be there. We talk every day, sometimes twice a day. I can't thank her enough for everything she's done and doing for me.

[RICHARD]

But you're not born alone, mom was there. And for me, she continues to be there. We talk every day, sometimes twice a day. I can't thank her enough for everything she's done and doing for me.

Mom will always be there, I miss my mom's advice, admonishments, her voice, laugh and I'd really like for someone to get 'angry' with me and tell me to (go home and) GO TO SLEEP.

Now?

I am by myself and have to be happy, disgusted, tough on and harsh on me.

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Yep, having the remote all to yourself effing ROCKS!

[sparks19]

ahhh you picked good shows

when the bad thoughts creep in... turn up the volume

[cassiesmom]

when the bad thoughts creep in... turn up the volume

Sometimes I try the radio when my mind starts on those bad thoughts. Don't know why but that seems to make them slow down.

[Alysser]

I am so glad things are looking up for you! KEEP it up

Rose, once he's out life will be good Take it one day at a time!

[RICHARD]

To make up for my behavior I would like to dedicate a song...

Up! by Shania Twain.

It's 'bout as bad as it could be
Seems everybody's buggin' me
Like nothing wants to go my way
Yeah, it just ain't been my day
Nothin's comin' easily

Even my skin is acting weird
I wish that I could grow a beard
Then I could cover up my spots
Not play connect the dots
I just wanna disappear

Up--up--up--
Can only go up from here
Up--up--up--Up
where the clouds gonna clear
Up--up--up--
There's no way but up from here

Even something as simple as
Forgettin' to fill up on gas
There ain't no explanation why
Things like that can make you cry
Just gotta learn to have a laugh


When everything is goin' wrong
Don't worry, it won't last for long
Yeah, it's all gonna come around
Don't go let it get you down
You gotta keep on holding on

It's 'bout as bad as it could be
Seems everybody's buggin' me
Like nothing wants to go my way
Yeah, it just ain't been my day
Nothin's comin' easily

Up--up--up--
Can only go up from here
Up--up--up--Up
where the clouds gonna clear
Up--up--up--
There's no way but up from here

Oh-- I'm going up
Oh-- I'm going up
Oh-- I'm going up
Oh-- I'm going up
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah...

[Queen of Poop]

Thanks Richard! She's one of my favorites.

Having a very emotional day today. It sucks. Have shed a few tears, but not for him. Diego has been a very sucky boy cat today though, he's working on making mommy feel better by napping on my lap for an hour here, and an hour there.

Have also made up my list of what we own at our lake house. He's at a disadvantage, I've a photographic memory.

[rosethecopycat]

Thanks Richard! She's one of my favorites.

Having a very emotional day today. It sucks. Have shed a few tears, but not for him. Diego has been a very sucky boy cat today though, he's working on making mommy feel better by napping on my lap for an hour here, and an hour there.

Have also made up my list of what we own at our lake house. He's at a disadvantage, I've a photographic memory.

I'm sorry for your emotional day, it is hard to 'itemize' your life.
I have to start that paperwork tomorrow.
Still feels like someone is sitting on my chest.

I'm glad Diego is there for you, we are all still thinking of you, Gayle.
Keep your head above water.

[Daisy and Delilah]

Keeping on keeping on , ladies!!!! You both are doing fantastic. Keep thinking positive about your wonderful new lives ahead. Hard to see now but not far away!!!