Thank you, very much.. and the comment about furs, you're right - I don't think we'll ever get them all out of the house.

It was a lot more peaceful than I thought it would be.. My sister, mom, stepdad, and stepbrother as well as I were all there - and we had him cuddled into this big fluffy towel/blanket. Calm and polite to the very end - They took him and put an IV into his right forearm and let us have a lot of time with him, still cuddled in his blanket. When we decided it was time the Doctor came in and did what she had to do - and it was hard, you don't want to look but you look.. and my mom was holding him and closed his eyes when it was done, but you keep looking over and at a point you see a life and then the next you know he's gone.

They let us take him home in a box, I'm unsure how many feel about that - it was a big sturdy box though, buried him deep and gave him a little memorial. (My mom and sister wanted to do this very badly it seemed), found a big rock that seemed to fit perfectly as sort of a tombstone, and we let it all be.

I love you Bear, I'm glad you're in a much better place.. You'll live on forever in our hearts and minds.

Thank you for all the precious years too..

And again, thanks to everyone who replied - the RB story was great, made me cry but it was a good cry.. and the condolences are nice. He was a very beautiful boy, well still is in my memory..