Where I'm at now...something positive

[Catty1]

Good to hear! :-)

I don't know how you heard about what his mom thinks, but if anyone tries to tell you anything about that family, her included, just tell them it's none of your business (meaning you). You don't need any button-pushing crap from anyone!

If charges have been laid, the mom will get a rude awakening at court!

Your kitties will be so happy to see you - and will be sniffing out their new home!

[Queen of Poop]

Well I got stuff. Just not all the stuff I wanted to take. Getting going with the divorce lawyer, her fees are steep, she better be good. Kittens are settling into their new home. They've investigated pretty much everywhere. Diego is wandering around and Cali is napping on her cat blanket on my bed. I am feeling terribly sad now.

[Queen of Poop]

I'm going to have to see about some counselling tomorrow when I go back to work. I've been crying for pretty much the last 2 hours. I thought getting my stuff and the kittens would make me feel better, but I don't think I've felt this low ever.

Diego did his best too. Came and had a wee cat nap in my arms. I guess I am just absolutely heartbroken.

[dukedogsmom]

I'm just now getting caught up with you. I've been worried about you for a while now. So very sorry about Sasha I know it feels like a piece of your heart has been ripped out. Take care of yourself

[Alysser]

I'm going to have to see about some counselling tomorrow when I go back to work. I've been crying for pretty much the last 2 hours. I thought getting my stuff and the kittens would make me feel better, but I don't think I've felt this low ever.

Diego did his best too. Came and had a wee cat nap in my arms. I guess I am just absolutely heartbroken.

I am strictly speaking from an outside source, but I personally think you have every right to be heartbroken right now - but only for awhile, don't let him rule your life forever. ALL of this IS HIS FAULT, you did nothing wrong in the situation WHATSOEVER. Please don't ever think that, he brought all this upon himself and he deserves what he gets! YOU didn't deserve to be with someone like that and you never ever will deserve to be treated like that. You will see, I promise. I really do..please feel better soon, for your kitties, friends and family, and MOST yourself!

[chocolatepuppy]

You will make friends now, now that no one's stopping you. Believe in yourself, that you're a wonderful person. You are.

[Catty1]

Holy cow, Gayle, of COURSE you need some counselling. You have been beaten for years, you have gone to your parents', had to put down your best friend, get a place to live, get your stuff from the old place TWICE - holy cow girl, this is MAJOR stress and heartbreak!

My guess from my experience - you have been in survival mode for over a week - our brain does this so we can do what needs to be done.

Now that the major "doing" is over, the "being" catches up. It is safe now for you/your psyche to let go. Yes, get counselling to get you through the first few months...this is a HUGE grieving time. Also remember that you likely have years of crying to catch up on.

It's OK - it really is.

You might find a women's group helpful too...women who have all been where you are.

HUGS!

[rosethecopycat]

I'm going to have to see about some counselling tomorrow when I go back to work. I've been crying for pretty much the last 2 hours. I thought getting my stuff and the kittens would make me feel better, but I don't think I've felt this low ever.

Diego did his best too. Came and had a wee cat nap in my arms. I guess I am just absolutely heartbroken.

I am so sorry to hear you are feeling so low. I am feeling the same, let's hold eachother up for a while.
You are in my thoughts too.

[Queen of Poop]

I am going back to work today. It's 5:45 am and I am pretty much ready to leave. Way too early. I am hoping Cali and Diego will be ok their first day in the apartment by themselves. I am hoping I can get thru the day without breaking down. Right now I could just throw up. I just want to go curl back up in bed.

When my alarm went off Diego came and crawled under the covers, right against my chest/tummy and purred. At that moment I felt so much love. Such a good boy.

[Queen of Poop]

See the counsellor tomorrow at 11:45.

I have to stop being on the verge of tears all the time.

[dukedogsmom]

I've been where you are now. When I lost Duke, I about had a nervous breakdown. But I didn't seek counseling, which was stupid. I hope it helps you. I wish for you great strength for today. You've got a lot of support here to help you.

[Moesha]

You have been through a lot and are dealing with so many different things. Right now it is natural to be on the verge of tears all the time. I hope that the counseling will help you to deal with everything and help you move past this difficult time. Many thoughts of comfort and support being sent your way.

[emily_the_spoiled]

I am glad that you made this decision. Remember it took you awhile to reach this point to leave, so please do not expect your feelings to "be gone" right away. It will take awhile to work through everything (even with help). But Catty1 has a good idea, unfortunately there are plenty of other people who have been (or are in) a similar situation, so it might be helpful to talk with them.

Gentle hugs and curl up with the furry ones when you get home tonight...

[Medusa]

Counseling will help you to relieve yourself of all the things that need saying, if nothing else but, hopefully, you'll find a counselor who will do more than just listen. Whatever the case may be, know that every day you're a little bit closer to getting better.

[Queen of Poop]

Ok, I'm really proud of myself. I went after work today and bought a tv and cable box. I've never been allowed to set them up before so was quite intimidated by the whole thing. But guess what!!!! I did it!!! I am now watching tv, it all works. I did it all by myself!!! This is just the positive thing I needed to happen. If I can do this on my own, what's next.

Anyways I think in my lack of sleep mind I've gone just goofy and the sadness can only return. But right now I'm relishing in my success.