Where I'm at now...something positive

[Alysser]

I'm going to have to see about some counselling tomorrow when I go back to work. I've been crying for pretty much the last 2 hours. I thought getting my stuff and the kittens would make me feel better, but I don't think I've felt this low ever.

Diego did his best too. Came and had a wee cat nap in my arms. I guess I am just absolutely heartbroken.

I am strictly speaking from an outside source, but I personally think you have every right to be heartbroken right now - but only for awhile, don't let him rule your life forever. ALL of this IS HIS FAULT, you did nothing wrong in the situation WHATSOEVER. Please don't ever think that, he brought all this upon himself and he deserves what he gets! YOU didn't deserve to be with someone like that and you never ever will deserve to be treated like that. You will see, I promise. I really do..please feel better soon, for your kitties, friends and family, and MOST yourself!

[chocolatepuppy]

You will make friends now, now that no one's stopping you. Believe in yourself, that you're a wonderful person. You are.

[Catty1]

Holy cow, Gayle, of COURSE you need some counselling. You have been beaten for years, you have gone to your parents', had to put down your best friend, get a place to live, get your stuff from the old place TWICE - holy cow girl, this is MAJOR stress and heartbreak!

My guess from my experience - you have been in survival mode for over a week - our brain does this so we can do what needs to be done.

Now that the major "doing" is over, the "being" catches up. It is safe now for you/your psyche to let go. Yes, get counselling to get you through the first few months...this is a HUGE grieving time. Also remember that you likely have years of crying to catch up on.

It's OK - it really is.

You might find a women's group helpful too...women who have all been where you are.

HUGS!