Thank you everyone for your support. It is nice to be able to reach out to people who really understand.

I have had other dogs but Sadie was the first dog that was all mine, as I started life on my own. She will always have a special place in my heart, moreso than any dog before or any dog that may be in my future.

I had forgotten how hard grief hits you. I'm still in shock that Sadie is gone but I'm feeling less guilty about my decision to end her suffering. It's so hard to let go.