Aw, Mo, such a beautiful story about a beautiful boy. I'm sorry that you're still so sad but it does get easier, really it does. Time takes the sting out of it all but that doesn't mean that you'll ever stop missing him. You'll just be able to get through the day w/out being so sad. Soon you'll find yourself smiling instead of crying when you think of him. Your memories will be a comfort to you. Until that time comes, your PT family is here. (((HUGS)))