When Puddy was in her decline, there was a conference that I go to every year and I just couldn't bring myself to go last year. I just didn't want to leave her. (She was in such a bad state that I couldn't have done that to my cat sitter anyhow.) I was glad that I didn't go because, if I had, Puddy would've died while I was gone. So I understand exactly what you're going through, however, I also understand how necessary it is to get away and clear your head for a bit. Our peace of mind is important, too. So, whatever you decide, do so w/a clear conscience. What will be will be. Keep the faythe.