Thanks to everyone who took the time to read my post(s) - I really appreciate it. I know how I feel about him, how he feels about me, it's just more than any words can say really. It's true, I'm at a crossroad right now and figuring things out on my own, but I gotta admit, I just know, the last three years, it's been worth it and still is worth it to be with someone like him. He is a wonderful guy, sure, some flaws I don't like that he has, but it's what makes him "him". He brought up something to remind me that he was always who he's been and I must've just "realized" it now instead of before. Go figure, but hey, it's change, I suppose. I was in college the last 2 years and now I am back at home and now I kind of "see" things now, more like how things are really like. I gotta say, it is tough sometimes when I hear a lot of people I know say, "Don't you want him to say these words? How do you really know?" or "I think that's weird, I don't understand how you can be with someone who is different, etc." I do ADMIT sometimes it does get me thinking too much. All I know is, I'd rather be with him than anybody else. We also got to talk about "the future", and that, we don't have to talk about it right now, but by sometimes next year, it will be talked about. So that's good for the both of us, it's all we can really do for now.

Ok, I guess last night we held hands, but hey. Not bad right? I told him that I like to hold hands and that I wouldn't do it with him because I knew he didn't like to do that, and he said "Ok, hey, I don't care, if you want to hold hands, then take my hand." - I think we have cleared up that part... hopefully. I guess it is all about timing.

Catnapper - The way we say good night to eachother/goodbye, we always say "Good night and adios!" - I think that's become more of our "I love you" instead of actually saying these words. It's my take on it.

Finnsmom - I agree. It's all about timing. When we met, where we are, it's the right timing for the both of us. I absolutely do not doubt him that he does love me. I know it, he just isn't good with words. He said he will try really hard to be open.

Anyways, I think from our talk we've had over the weekend has helped us see some things and I think it will be okay. I have faith in us, and that's all I can say.