I should not have posted when I did. I was diagnosed with cancer two days ago about this time. I have not slept.

I feel so much better now.

The surgeon has called and they are bending over backward to make things easier on me because I have such a hard to manage anxiety level.

I have succesfully gotten records sent from down here to up there two hours away. It was complicated but I feel like I did something right.

They gave me some medicine to help with the scary thoughts and it works.

Stinky is back from the vet. They gave him the shot and said they think the chronic foot swelling is related to his eosinophylic granulomatosis complex he gets in other places. He feels real saucy when he gets back from the vet. We have cuddled. And we are going to play because he is fun when he is saucy.

Thank you for not judging me harshly. I have never had a more terrifying experience than hearing those words "you have cancer." And the waiting to see how bad it is is already agonizing.