Thank you everbody.
Today has been hard. It is somehow like my world has shifted a little and everthing seems slightly out of place. For 8 and a half years Bonnie was part of my world and her not being anymore is still sort of unbelieveable. For a good number of those years she and her cage have occupied the same part of the kitchen, it is her place. It is the room I use the most, I sit and and read, do all sorts of stuff beside cooking and eating, so now there is this big gap, not physically, for that space can be filled, no, it is her not being there that can`t be filled. Last night she was not there when I went to say goodnight, not there this morning when I went to greet her, not there when I went to say goodbe when I went out, not there to say hello to when I came home again. She is not there just behind my left shoulder as I eat or read, no sound of her running up and down in excitement at the squeek when I open the cupboard door, knowing she will get some cereal or crisps. No shout from her because she want her cover on or off... the day and night has had all of these holes and more. Oh, Pet Talkers, I know from experience the hurt will lessen in time, and those peculiar silences will become the norm. But she will never, ever be replaced in my heart, nor do I ever plan to replace her in reality with another bird, for I don`t think I can nor do I want to.

Thank you for reading, thank you, every one of you, for your thoughts and prayers and hugs. Each one of you have helped so much.

Love
Chris