Robin,

I am glad that you are no longer in pain, but I am selfish I guess, because I miss you so much and wonder every day why this had to happen to you.
Worrying about what we were going to do to give you the proper respect, and then finally getting that taken care of.. And then having to bring your clothes up there and worrying whether they would actually put them on. This may be stupid to some, because I know its just your physical form, but you always told me you wanted to have shoes and socks on... You didn't like being barefooted.. So these types of things worried me so much..

I can't seem to find the words to say something proper for you.. I just don't know what to say.
I don't know what to do anymore.. I walk around numb all the time.. We were together for 3 1/2 years. It would have been 4 years on February the 15th. These were the best almost 4 years of my life, and I am so lost right now..

Getting your ashes back was almost weird.. It's hard to believe that was once your body.

I wish you could have been here to see our four legged daughter turn 1. I know how much you loved her, and she loves you. We were both there when she was born, and its hard to believe that you aren't here for this special day.

Deebo still looks for you. When we came back from South Carolina, I know he kept wondering why you didn't walk in behind me.. You were his everything, and it tears me up to see him searching for you.

I'm sorry this is so jumbled.. And I hope one day I will be able to write something better and more respectful for you. Right now I'm having difficulty even thinking.. I still cry myself to sleep some nights, wishing you were still here.. But then I get even more upset because I know how long you suffered, and am so glad you don't have to deal with it anymore.

I love you and miss you more than anyone will ever know...
Rest in Peace baby.. I'm so glad you are forever free from pain.




3-26-1965 / 1-17-2009