Kinda nervous about tomorrow

[Daisy and Delilah]

Sending more:

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Take care Jennie.

[Catlady711]

Sorry to hear you had a panic attack, aren't sleeping and meds aren't working.

I've had panic attacks at times myself, even when your head says you're fine, everything else says 'run away'. It's a pain to deal with even with meds for it.

I hope things settle down for you and maybe your dr will give you something so you can get some much needed rest.

HUGS

[K9karen]

Jen, so did you finally get to school yesterday? Did you call the doc for a new script? How are you now? Add me to the hug list.

[jennielynn1970]

I called in for a script for Lunesta. That is some weird stuff. I felt like I was asleep in a way, but I was awake, and yet, I couldn't make myself move. It was really freaky. I kept thinking of that old film "The Serpent and the Rainbow", where they have that sleeping dust stuff, and they're unable to move or speak or whatever, lol. That's what it felt like. I'm gonna give the Ambien another shot. Maybe I just need to be overly tired for it to work again.


SO, it's 5:15am, and I've been awake since 3:15am. I made breakfast, apple pancakes. Took a shower, exfoliated my face with a new face scrub, used a new shampoo and conditioner that is supposed to be invigorating, lol, and even had some nice, new, fresh and fluffy towels ready and waiting for me.

Now I just need to do some makeup, get dressed in work clothes and get there early. The building opens at 6am, so I think I'll get there about 6:30am and allow myself that extra time to just relax and get ready for the day. Maybe I'll stop at Panera Bread and get a house latte while I'm out early, I dunno. I want a hot cocoa with a shot of espresso... that used to totally hit the spot, but the Moravian Book Shop isn't open this early. Guess I'll have to hit Thursdays and have a virtual one!

I think I'm ready for today. Closing eyes and breathing deep!

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Good luck, Jenn. You'll be fine. =]

Lots of love and support from me and my frozen furkids in Wisconsin...

[Cataholic]

I hope you make it today! In case you don't, maybe you could do a 'dry run'? Go to work after the busy hours? Maybe just tour the place, and see a few people, get some of the newness out of the way?

[caseysmom]

Your in my thoughts today.

[shais_mom]

hope things are going well!

[jennielynn1970]

I'm back again this AM. 2 hrs early again, lol. I wasn't really nervous this AM, I just had slept 6hrs and couldn't sleep any longer, so I got up again and just got ready. Listened to talk radio, then decided I'll just stop for OJ and I needed tissues for school, so ran into Walgreens on my way to work.

Some of the comments I got yesterday were really funny. I have a group of girls that are just too darn sweet, and too darn mature for their ages in 7th grade. They came barreling up to me when I had lunch duty (woooot! not!), and practially knocked me over. Then they proceded to ask whether I had been "chillin at home wit your man". Ummmmm.... unless my man is short and furry, nope!! The other, was of course I expected this one, had I gone out really early and not told anyone that I was pregnant. Um... again, no. You have to be having sex for that to happen, and that hasn't happened for, geez... don't remind me how long, lol. (I didn't say THAT to the kids though, don't worry!!!)

So, the kids were great, most of the teachers were great, although there were some who had NO IDEA that I was even out. Granted they are in the other end of the building, but GEEZ!!! Do you read the announcements where it says who is out? Do you notice when there is a strange person in the building that you've never seen before? Do you go to the library? (I guess we know THAT answer). But, the people that matter made it known that they were glad I am back and that they missed me.

The one comment that I got that made me teary, and I wanted to beat him for it, was my friend John. He's one of our custodians, and he asked how I was doing (after giving me a hug to take the wind out of me), and he says "Who do you love? Come on, who do you love?" and the thing is, he doesn't want you to say you love him (well, I lie, yes he does, lol), but he wants you to admit that you love yourself. That you are number one in your life. It's hard to say it. It's really hard for me to say it. I put so many other people first, but I know that I do have to put me first. I love John for keeping me balance like that, he's really a great friend.

Anyway, those are just some of the things from day 1. Day 2 is here, and I'm ready to go. Glad it is friday, because tonight I'm going to relax, have some pizza and maybe start writing down why I love teaching, and also why I should love me. What those other people told me why they were happy I was back, and how much they care about me. It is good to know, and a very reassuring feeling.

So.... that's all for now. Gonna get ready for kids coming in about an hour, so will do some reading and straightening up until then.

[Cincy'sMom]

Glad things went well yesterday. Here is to another good day!