Tomorrow is my first day back to work/school since almost the beginning of the school year. I took a 1/2 year sabbatical to get my depression under control (which is much much better!), and now I'm just nervous about going back. I have relaxation exercises and stuff I can do, but I'm still nervous. I'm know it's silly to worry about what other people think and say, but it's still something that is in the back of my mind. Part of me wonders if some of the teachers even noticed I as out. The whole time I was out, only 1 person sent me a card about hoping I felt better. My assistant said it was because the principal wouldn't let the secretaries put my name and address in the bulletins for get well cards cause he didn't want to "draw attention" to me being out because I was depressed. LOL. I guess it's good and bad, it just makes you wonder if anyone actually cares.
I guess part of me just wants to go back to elementary and feel like a part of something again. I miss that family feeling. We don't have it at my school, and living alone, well... it's lonely and I miss having family around.
Anyway... that's all. Just me being nervous and silly.
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