Barney is an Angel Now.

[Moesha]

Snuggle with the other kitties. Let them lick the tears away.

[Grace]

I Did Not Die

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle Autumn’s rain.

When you awaken in the morning’s hush.
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there;
I did not die.


- Anon -

[weluvcats]

beautiful...It really is...

Judy

[kb2yjx]

I lit my outside candle at 1600. I thought of Barney while cooking at the ham club meeting/supper. I am so glad you all were there holding hands and hugging each other!!! I was there in spirit!!! Here is a little poem book that I bought after Ralph Syracuse left for the Bridge.

WEEP NOT FOR ME Constance Jenkins

Weep not for me though I am gone
Into that gentle night.

Grieve if you will, but not for long.

Upon my soul's sweet flight.

I am at peace, my soul's at rest.

There is no need for tears;

For with your love I was so blessed
For all those many years.

There is no pain, I suffer not;

The fear now is all gone.

Put now these things out of your thoughts,
In your memory I live on.

Remember not my fight for breath,
Remember not the strife.

Please do not dwell on my death,
Bur celebrate my life.

Sleep softly, sweet Barney...

[weluvcats]

these wonderful poems? They are so sweet and beautiful... Thanks for sharing these...

Judy

I lit my outside candle at 1600. I thought of Barney while cooking at the ham club meeting/supper. I am so glad you all were there holding hands and hugging each other!!! I was there in spirit!!! Here is a little poem book that I bought after Ralph Syracuse left for the Bridge.

WEEP NOT FOR ME Constance Jenkins

Weep not for me though I am gone
Into that gentle night.

Grieve if you will, but not for long.

Upon my soul's sweet flight.

I am at peace, my soul's at rest.

There is no need for tears;

For with your love I was so blessed
For all those many years.

There is no pain, I suffer not;

The fear now is all gone.

Put now these things out of your thoughts,
In your memory I live on.

Remember not my fight for breath,
Remember not the strife.

Please do not dwell on my death,
Bur celebrate my life.

Sleep softly, sweet Barney...

[Moesha]

I wish you could all see how many people are reading this thread right now. I just clicked on the online users link and way over half on the first page were reading this thread. Barney was a very loved kitty. What a rough day you had. I do hope that you feel some comfort and support from all of us here.

[kb2yjx]

MEGA HUGS Lara!!! It was a rough day for you...take care of yourself....Sandra

[Purr-tender]

Thank you Scott for Barney's good-bye video.

Thank you Lara for allowing us to be part of his life, too. I am so very sorry for your loss, for our loss. It hurts so much even though we all know he is at peace and surrounded by PT angels. God bless you, Lara and Scott.

Love,
Mary

[weluvcats]

But, as you said, he is at peace and his suffering is over. We were all a mess here this afternoon, as I'm sure you saw in our posts, but I am glad that Barney's and your ordeal is over. Bless his sweet little heart, this is a kitty that none of us will ever forget. We will also never forget your kindness, love and compassion for this lost little angel. I believe that there is a special place in Heaven for people like you. Take comfort in knowing that while Barney was with you, you did your absolute best for him, and when the time came, you said goodbye to him with love and compassion. None of us can ever hope for more. God bless and keep you, Lara and Scott. Your Barney is purring happily and smiling down on you from the Bridge.

Judy

[kt_luvs_kitties]

Lara, I am just so sorry. I am crying my eyes out, with the rest of you.

I could not sleep at all last night, just thinking about sweet Barney. I prayed for him all day long. All last night. And I mean constantly. I kept looking at the clock and cringing. My heart hurts right now.

I wish I could give you one big *HUG*. I hope that you truly know the impact you had on Barneys life. It was the difference for him.




RIP sweet Barney. I am so sorry your whole life was not filled everyday with the love you felt in your last days. You were so unlucky, but then again, very much lucky. I think God knew you deserved the very best last few months with someone who loves you completely and wholeheartedly. You can now be Lara and Scotts Angel, and protect them like they did you. I hope that you can see my tears, and know that I loved you very much, even though I never met you. I feel I knew you anyways.... Gentle kisses sweet Tuxie boy.

[slick]

Grace, that's beautiful.
Kb, such comforting words.

I'm finally home from work and will be lighting a candle for Barney shortly. It seems I've perfected the talent of driving and crying at the same time...

Gosh, I'm worried about Lara and Scott. This first night will be a long one for them. They have us and each other along with the rest of their furbabies but I fear that may not be enough to bring them comfort tonight.

{{{Group Hug}}}

[Emeraldgreen]

Wow you guys! So many pages of posts have appeared since this morning! I've read every one of them and thank you for all being there for Barney and for me and Scott.

What a day. What a cat.
I had butterflies in my stomach from the moment I woke up to the moment he left for Rainbow Bridge.
When I opened his door this morning he was so chipper and meowed very loudly at me. It made me sad. But Barney just carried on as usual and looked at me like "come on, give me my yummies already!!", which of course I promptly did.

I went in to visit with him so many times and gave him quite a few plates of food too. I bundled him up and walked around with him again. It was probably the best day I've spent with him since I brought him home.
I kissed him hundreds of times and cried a bunch. Scott filmed me holding him just a few minutes before Barney and I left for the hospital and as usual, it is the darkest video ever but this time I'm glad because half way through I started crying when Scott started talking about Rainbow Bridge. So hopefully you can't see that part! I will post it at the end of this post.

I put Barney into a carrier and I hated the look in his eyes, he looked so scared. I loaded him up into our truck next to me. Scott said his goodbyes and then we drove down the driveway. Barney was meowing so much and I hadn't heard this meow before. He was scared. So, when I pulled onto our street, I pulled over and took him out of the cage and bundled him in his blue fleece blanket so he was all snuggly and I put him on my lap as I drove.
He never meowed again and was quiet as a little mouse.

The ferry ride was really rough and the boat was tossing all over the place. I was actually a bit scared. I thought 'if Barney dies from drowning instead of at the vet clinic, I'm going to be so mad!'

Travel time to the vet took about 45 minutes in all and he just snuggled in and didn't make a peep. He wasn't sleeping because I kept petting him and looking at him. His little eyes were open and he was just looking around but had his chin resting on the blankets.

We drove along the ocean and the waves were crashing in. I told Barney that his time was almost here. When we got there, I carried him in, in his blanket and paid for everything first so I wouldn't have to do it afterwards with blurry eyes.

A receptionist put us in a room and Barney remained so still. Robin the vet came in and she unwrapped him a bit and it was so weird, it was as if he had already been sedated. He let her handle him anyway she wanted and was kind of limp. Just an hour before, he was walking around, meowing and eating. She had a look at his back leg because that is where she wanted to give him the sedative. Normally he would have really put up a fight if you touched any of his legs but he didn't move.

I don't know if he was scared or if he was sleepy because he'd been bundled up for 45+minutes with me or if he knew what was coming and wasn't fighting it one bit or if it is all three things combined.

Robin gave him the sedation shot while I rubbed his head to distract him. She left us alone for about 5 minutes. I think by this time it was around 2:30 or 2:35. He was really out of it after the shot but at one point he sneezed and it really startled me.
Shortly after, she came in with the tech and they gave him the final shot. Robin said "it's time to go to sleep now Barney". Tears were just falling by the dozens from my eyes onto my jeans. I was so incredibly sad.
Robin was very kind and said that Barney sure found the right person when he found me and I was happy to hear that. I was concerned that she would think that I'd left him too long. But I think she could see how much he meant to me.

I was left with him for as much time as I wanted. It was strange to see him 'gone' but he was in peace and the suffering was over. I wrapped him up and took him out to the truck because I had arranged to drive 40 minutes south to a pet crematorium. I know the vet clinics also offer this but I've heard of some stories about ashes coming back that don't seem to fit the animal. A ton of ashes come back for a cat while the ashes for a Rottweiler come back in a box the size of a hamster. I was just so worried that I wouldn't get 'Barney' back so I found a small place where I thought it would be better.

So I drove down to the town with Barney and did a bunch of crying. I don't really remember much of the drive. Probably shouldn't have been driving. I called my husband and he said that he had lit a candle for Barney at 2:30 too.
It was starting to get a bit dark by the time I got there but I couldn't find it!! I drove on all these country roads and had to put my truck in 4-wheel drive because of the snow and almost got stuck a few times. I never did find it and when I called, they didn't answer. So, after about an hour, I headed back up to the clinic where Barney was put down. Around 5:00p.m. I brought Barney back to them and asked if they could have him cremated and explained that I couldn't find the other place. They were really nice about it and took Barney. I wrapped him in a fleece shirt that he always liked to sleep with and asked that he be cremated with that.

So, he is gone. Thank you all for your posts and support and candles. Barney is officially an angel now and I miss him terribly as I know all of you do too. He really was one amazing little cat. I'll never forget him and I'm so glad that he found all of us.

I will post a Memorial thread for him now. Below is the video of us just before we left today. I will post the other video in the Memorial thread.