This is a picture taken of Barney last night. (I'm in my usual Barney Bathrobe!)
You can see how the cancer has spread to in front of his ear now.
I wrapped him up in his favourite microfleece blanket and sat by the fire and then walked over to the glass doors and let him look out at all the snow. He looked intently at the yard and then rubbed his head on my chest as if to say "I'm sure glad I'm not out there meowmie". I was a complete mess because he kept looking outdoors and then bonked his head on me over and over again. I cried so much his little head was all sopping wet and when the drops would land on him, he'd look up at me. I told him how sorry I was that I couldn't change things and make them better so he could stay.

Then Sneakers walked into the room and he spotted her. He's never seen her before. He was so focused on her and his little ears faced forwards and he watched her wherever she walked. She was really putting on a show for him and was doing rollies on the floor and looking at him and talking. I never put him on the floor but he never took his eyes off her. I really think he liked seeing her.

I've put together a clip of him eating last night and then a few pics inbetween and a final short clip of him this morning. I will also post the pics below the movie because in the movie they fly by so fast. There is one pic of me holding Barney while I stand in the stairwell and you can see Sneakers down below. She followed us everywhere last night.

This morning I brought in a bowl of warm sudsy water and gave Barney a birdbath. I gently washed his wounds again and washed his fur a bit and then really washed his feet again to get rid of all the kitty litter that always got stuck between his toes. I removed the kitty litter from his box and put a towel in there because I didn't want him to get more litter on his paws because then I'd have to wash them again and he isn't fond of it.

He has been eating Fancy Feast this morning and really enjoying it. He's already had 3/4 of a can. He is so sweet. I find myself in a of a fog this morning. It's kind of like autopilot because if I wasn't, I couldn't see to drive.

He has been so affectionate these past few hours and has rubbed up against me more times than he ever has. I really think he knows.


Thank you all for your posts. I wanted to respond to each one as I usually do but my time with Barney is running so short now, I need to go and be with him.

I will post that really short but special video of our Barney (that I took 6 days ago but have never posted) tonight in his memorial thread. It's a heartbreaker but I think we will all want to remember him this way.

I will be forever grateful for all of your support in the many ways that you guys were here for me and for Barney. Words cannot describe. Major LES here. I have to go.