I really feel like I will be walking into that room with dozens of people! At least in spirit and that is just as powerful if you ask me. I'm grateful for the support. I'm so glad you too will be lighting a candle.

Lara, you will be. I wish I could be there with you to hold Barney and to give you a hug. I will definately be thinking of you both tomorrow afternoon.

Well, he's not doing so great today. I don't know if it's the lack of insulin or just the cancer. He isn't that keen on his food today. He'll take a few bites but is not nearly as eager as he has been recently. The other thing I noticed yesterday is that the tumor is really progressing. It is spreading and moving up his ear and in front of it now. It's bumpy and ugly. I hate cancer!! I've lost too many people to it and pets too. I stopped his prednisilone about 4 or 5 days ago because combining it with Metacam was upsetting his stomach as I was told it would. He had runny poop for a few days. So I took him off the pred and now he just gets the pain meds but I think the lack of steroids is one of the reasons the tumor is spreading so quickly.

I am so sorry that he is not doing well today. Perhaps this is his sign to you that it is his time? I believe that he knows that you are agonizing over this decision, so he is letting you know that this one last final act of kindness that he is requesting of you will be granted. I pray that he is comfortable and pain free so that your remaining time together is memorable.

This is amazing! Thank you for posting that and for lighting a candle for Barney. I went onto the site and lit one too. I read everybody's messages and think it is so thoughtful. I got all teared up when I read the one from EM from Ohio who wrote "please say hi to our Emma when you get there". It was so sad and sweet. Is that you?

Oh Lara, that is my candle that I lit for Barney. I wondered if I was being selfish to ask him to do so, but it brought such comfort to me to know that he would be with my beloved Emma, as well as all the other PT pets who await their loved one's reunion. It helps me to deal with his loss, as well with my Emma's, who I still miss. (I have added her pic to my album.) Thinking of you and Barney,

Mary