Lara, I'm sorry to hear that you've been so stressed lately. I know that making the decision to let Barney go is a very difficult one but unfortunately it's inevitable since he's not going to get better but only worse.

I've only had to make this decision one time so far and I too almost felt like I had made the wrong decision because the morning before I was to take Pepper to my vet to be put down, he seemed happier, more alert, and he was purring and purring. I had to realize that he wasn't getting any better and his health was declining. I also didn't want him to be in any more pain. I was too chicken to be in the room with him while they gave him the shot so I had to say goodbye to him before they did this. He had a country burial in a different location because I live in a condo so I don't have my own yard.

I'm glad that you'll be able to spend some more time with Barney before you let him go. Hopefully this will help you to come to terms with his illness. We'll all be there with you on Fri. in spirit and I hope that everything will go well and that he'll go peacefully. He'll never be forgotten and he'll live in your heart forever. Please take care. (((HUGS)))