Lara, I have a book " Complete Care for Your Aging Cat " by Amy D. Shojai. Chapter 6 Making Choices is excellent. " There is NO wrong answer," regarding making the final descision. " Yes, this is hard. It hurts, In a strange way, it's suppose to be hard. It wouldn't be so difficult if you didn't care so much."

" A hard decision is often the right decision when it comes out of love for your cat. Any choice you make that based on love and concern for your cat's welfare CANNOT BE WRONG."

I have made this FINAL decision too many times in the past year(4 times), it is never easy, but you have to trust your heart, and know that you ARE doing the right thing. I do not think anyone here would ever question your judgement. You are the one who is with Barney daily. And you know him best.

Just remember what my vet said about the cats wanting us to remember them " good " and not that they were so ill.....I send you prayers(for Barney, too) and HUGS for you, too!!!