Jen, your family situation sounds similar to mine except that I had no younger siblings; I was the baby, and no one talked about their feelings much, so I can relate to what you did for them for Christmas. Personally, I feel that it was a courageous and healthy step to take and even if they don't discuss it w/you, I guarantee that it still made an impact. You'll notice things that they say or do down the road but it may take a while. It was very healing for you and it'll also have an impact on you, too. I do hope you give up the self hate and start liking/loving yourself as much as others do, including me.