Richard, the care you gave your Mom will comfort you. Some of the best memories I have of Mama was when she was dying and the times we spent together. That was the worst of times but some of our BEST times and the greatest memories I have out of the tons of them I have. Nothing in life prepares you for the loss of your mother and you never quit missing them. But I think often of the quiet times we had after she became ill, the endless discussions, the jokes and laughing.. at times acting like silly kids. I find a of of comfort in those memories and KNOW I did everything I could for her. I had so many hugs left over after she left.... Your Mother knew she was loved and that is what it is all about, isn't it? You were there for her as she was for you when you were growing up, there is a lot of comfort in knowing that. You will never stop missing her.