Blessings to all of you. So much pain here and such courage as well.
My dad was a alcoholic also a Deputy Sheriff and later a police officer, strange combo and very confusing for a child. He busted many a drunk and scraped up many a dead body then went to the bar to drink, maybe to relieve the pain. I have been to several of our local cop bars, whole place is filled with nothing but police drinking, talking, bonding. They think they can drive drunk because they are professional.
I do want to say that all of you are very brave, strong and decent.
Being an alcoholic is very difficult and if you have stopped drinking you are a great example to all.