Oh Johanna, I am so sorry.

You are a good person for trying to do the right thing. It is so hard to know what is really right at a time like that, but if it is any comfort at all, that would have been the decision I would also have made (and for the same reasons). She had someone who cared for her and she knew your kindness, and I KNOW that it is YOU that she will be waiting for at the RB.