Update on Puddy; she's gone*9/29* see post #421

[Medusa]

I can't take much more. I've always been pretty strong but I've cried more in these last couple of months than I think I've cried my entire life. It seems all I do is cry. My son has been asking me to visit him in L.A. and I've always said "people first" but how can I leave her? If my son was ill, I'd be out there in a heartbeat if he needed me but I can't leave Puddy w/a catsitter or board her. I'm just so torn up inside. My poor little girl is lying under the bed or in the bathtub day after day after day. I'm assuaging my conscience by trying the Selegiline but I feel deep in my heart that it won't work. Who will guard my house when I leave for the day? As I'm walking out the door, I always say "Puddy, watch the house for Mommy". I can't take it! I can't take it!

[slick]

OH Mary, I'm sitting here at work with tears streaming down my face. I feel helpless and want to reach out and give you a geat big {{{hug}}}. You know, we all want to do as much as we can for our babies but we also need to take care of ourselves and our mental and physical health. If you are not alright, how can you take care of others??? Listen to me, that's the #1 rule I need to learn but it really is true.

None of us can give you the right answer, only you and dear Puddy can come to the right conclusion. In the meantime I'm sending lots of prayers to you and I'm asking God to wrap His arms around you and give you the strength to get through this, whatever the outcome is.

I've said it before and I'll say it again. You are stronger than I will ever be.

slick

[jenluckenbach]

How heartbreaking this is. Prayers for strength ans peace ar coming your way.

[momtomany]

Prayers for you and Puddy are all I can offer. I am so sorry that you are going thru this.

[pomtzu]

Poor Puddy and poor Mom. Everyday I check in to see how everything is going - I sure wish it was better. Maybe the new meds will kick in and you'll see some improvement - Lord knows you've given her your all. I know how helpless you feel, but you really have to take care of yourself! Sometimes it's easier if our furkids make the decision so we don't have to. I've been thru both scenerios, and even tho neither is "easy", we don't have those self-doubts and what-ifs, since it was taken out of our hands. Whatever happens I'm sure that Puddy knows she has the best Mom a kitty could possibly wish for. Please know that I - along with so many other here - have you and Puddy in my prayers everyday.

[jazzcat]

Just heading out to spend the day with my Dad and wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you and Puddy. Lots of (((HUGS)))

[Donnaj4962]

Aww, Mary. I wish I could just give you a great big hug! (Puddy, too!)

I know that you are sad, and that you only want to do what's best for Puddy. You will know what is right and when.

God Bless you. I will continue to pray for you and Puddy and all of your other furposse.

(((hugs))))