Teena,
So sorry to hear about your vet. That is terrible! I can't even imagine what someone must be going through to feel so low as to commit suicide! It's ashame that he didn't get some help. You never see it coming, either. My sister tried to do that, but deep down she must have realized that it was wrong and she ended up calling a friend, who, in turn called 911. She ended up getting 27 stiches in her wrist. I was so traumatized about the whole situation, not to mention all the worrying about her! She's doing better now, but it sure is a scary and disturbing thing to have to deal with. Especially when it's someone you know and someone who was good. That's definitely a loss to your community. It might take awhile, but I hope your numbness goes away soon!