((((HUGS)))))) to you in your time of pain. I know it's painful, your arms ache to hold him and your heart is breaking with grief.

Try to hang on to the fact that you gave him 18 wonderful years and he knew he was loved a whole lot and he loved you. It was because of your love and care that he lived as long as he did. ((((((HUGS)))))))) I know your pain all to well.