I don't even know where to start. This has been the worst year of my life.
My dad passed away in February. I miss him so much. Apparently, he was the glue that held our family together, because everything has just fallen apart.
My sister and brother-in-law are getting a divorce, after 30 years of marriage. She is having an affair. My niece and her husband are getting a divorce, after 12 years of marriage. Her three kids are just lost. She and her new boyfriend have this on-again/off-again mess, and she just found out she is pregnant. She is 38.
My step-kids are seriously the most horrible children I have ever met. Not kidding. Every single day it's a new issue. My husband thinks they are perfect little angels who can do absolutely no wrong ... they get thrown in jail, they abuse prescription drugs, they do meth. But nonetheless, they are the golden children. My husband and I pretty much hate each other these days, we can't go an hour, let alone a day, without a fight. There's no way this marriage is going to last. I'm just over it.
My son, who has been in trouble with the law for two years now due to a huge problem with smoking marijuana, is once again screwing up, two months after getting home after eight months in a juvenile facility. Today he wrecked his new car, he's had it for two weeks. My husband is pretty much gleeful about this, because it wasn't one of his little angels that did it, and he didn't want my son to get the car in the first place.
I will NEVER ask, "What next?" or "Could it get worse?" because I think the Powers That Be seem only too glad to show you exactly how much worse it could get if you do. I KNOW it could be FAR worse. But, dang ... it all starts to pile up after a while. I don't know what to do.
"We give dogs the time we can spare, the space we can spare and the love we can spare. And in return, dogs give us their all. It's the best deal man has ever made" - M. Facklam
"We are raised to honor all the wrong explorers and discoverers - thieves planting flags, murderers carrying crosses. Let us at last praise the colonizers of dreams."- P.S. Beagle
"All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring; Renewed shall be blade that was broken, The crownless again shall be king." - J.R.R. Tolkien
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