I don't have it in me to even look at his tank which happens to be in my room. I miss him. I'll miss his love of marshmallows, sweet pickles and especially peanut butter and sleeping in between my boobs while I watched tv.

My heart is heavy. I haven't felt this awful since I had to put RB Casey down in 2002.

Winkie, you are now with your first love Tia. That should make you very happy.