*sob* I'm just now seeing this I've loved Nicki from the first time I saw her. She stole my heart from the very beginning. I'm really at a loss for words. If you need to talk, please pm me. I know the hurt and emptiness that seems it will never go away. My heart is breaking, as well. I've lit a candle for her:
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/...ng&cid=6288925

Rest peacefully, Nicki. Let your family know that you're still with them somehow. We will all meet again one day. Until then, know that you're deeply missed.
If someone hasn't created an RB sig for you by tomorrow evening, I'd like to make one. I'm at work right now and can't.