What Were They Thinking ?

[Catty1]

I've suffered from clinical depression for man years. Although it has been under control for quite a few years now, I remember that black hole...it's like mental blinders going on and ALL you can see is the dark grey in front of you. You can't think of others...if the thoughts are there at all, they are distant and very unreal.

I pray that the son heals and learns he was NOT to blame at all...the "what ifs" can haunt people for years.

[shais_mom]

I stand by my opinion, it may not be the most popular but its what I believe, and I am not going to change my mind anytime soon.
I've never been clinically depressed or diagnosed, but I have had my own black periods in my life, where I felt the world would be better off without me. And then I look into the eyes of the 3 furry little creatures that depend on me and stopped those thinkings right now. I know several people whose family members, father, sister, brother, mom killed themselves, and I know what those people deal with day to day. I work with a woman whose sister hung herself well over 10 years ago and to this day has full blown drop on the floor anxiety attacks when someone mentions 'hanging'.
I work with young woman whose dad killed himself when she was 4 and at almost 30 she is still dealing with the repercussions of that.