Hello there. I am so sorry to read of the awful time you have had with Toby. He is pain free now and romping at the Bridge.

The other puppers are sad and miss him, but they are also picking up on your emotions.

Have you tried writing in a journal, writing him a letter each day? Tell him how much you love and miss him, and tell him what his 'kids' are doing. Tell him how you feel, and oh just whatever you wish to say to him.

He has a special place in your heart, and he will always be YOUR Toby. You won't forget him; sometimes people worry that if they stop grieving they will forget. No, you will never forget how wonderful he was. And over time, the hurt will lessen.

I pray that you find some peace. That is what Toby would want for you, so you can be the best doggie mom ever for his kids.