Gary!!!!!!!!!!!! No beating yourself up for something that happened such a long time ago, when you were having a rough time. You know that Pouncer was very much aware of what was happening, and she loved you because you tried to help her the best way you could!!! She is high up in the Traveling Angels Army. She has been to many places that she will take you when you both meet. One Fine Day.....Sleep softly, sweet Pouncer.....