Merlin was a wonderful cat, to be sure; the stories that you've told about him are a testament to that. You did the last act of kindness for him that you could do; you held him in your arms as he took his last breath. That is the most selfless thing anyone can do for our fur family. He loved you for that and he still loves you and is finished resting and is now eating all that fine, delicious food that he enjoyed while w/you. When he sees you again, he'll be so excited and happy and so will you. RIP, sweet Merlin Berlin and peace to you....