I know exactly what you are going through at the moment. It is a month and four days since my beloved Jack had to go due to heart failure brought on by hyperthyroidism. I know what you are feeling, the emptiness the cold feeling in your chest. Oh I know how it hurts so much you think you will just die. I am going through the exact same thing at the moment, each time I think of Jack I just cry.
But it will get better and eventually you will remember the good times as will I.

Just so you know there are so many people on here that know how you feel, and you can take some comfort in that. I know that I do and it's been a big help.

Have you tried writing a journal, or making a memory box, that's what I am doing and I write a letter to Jack in my journal every couple of days.

I am thinking of you at this painful time

Kate