Ally Cat Updates

[jennielynn1970]

Sigh... this was not a happy easter. I decided that since I was going up to my mom and dad I would drive over to the vet tech's house first, since I wasn't getting any answers from her via phone, and it was still early in the day.

I talked to Amanda, the girl who took Ally in, and, long story short, she had Ally PTS about 2 weeks ago. I knew something was going on, and I kinda had a feeling it wasn't good.

She assured me she tried everything with her, and even though she was bitten by her (I warned her...), she still had held out hope that something would change. She said she had never encountered a cat quite like Ally, being so aggressive and attacking unprovoked, and she was as scared of her as I had been.

We talked for at least 2hrs, we were both in tears, because we both wanted what was best for Ally, and neither of us wanted to have her PTS. I feel like I let her down. I just don't know what else I could have done, except ship her to someone else (another PT'er maybe??) who wanted to care for her. I doubt anyone would have wanted that job. Maybe Barbara or Carole, I dunno. Maybe I should have asked them if they wanted to take her, or if anyone would have taken her. I really don't think that would have been the answer though. I don't think it would have done any good for Ally.

Amanda did have her cremated, and she did give me her ashes. She said she thought I'd want to give her a proper burial. So, now she is buried up at my mom and dad's farm, next to our family pets who passed away. It's a nice spot, with rose bushes and currant bushes and gooseberry bushes growing. It's been so soggy and wet here, I didn't have to worry about the digging her grave.

I've been trying to keep the thought in my heart that she is now at peace. No more being afraid of people and attacking them. No more wondering where her owner is. She is finally resting. I just hope that's true, for her sake.

I'm sorry Ally. I hope you'll forgive me for failing you, because that's how I really feel no matter what.

[Grace]

Oh Jenn, you were never a failure. You tried longer than many would have - considering how Ally was.

She's at peace now; that's what is important. One day you will see her again.

[Catty1]

Oh, Jenn....LES.

Sweetie...it seems clearer now more than ever that poor Ally was not happy, and never would be - that something tortured her.

Even as an only cat in a caring home with a vet tech...and it's not like Amanda gave up after two days.

Dear, dear Jenn...I hope that some day you will realize how much you did for that girl, more and so much more than anyone ever did or ever could have done.

There was nothing more you could have done...nothing more.

Ally - I feel you warm, relaxed, you KNOW you are safe and loved forever. Please visit dear Jenn - you now know how she loved you and what that love felt like. Please let her know you are okay, and living the best life you ever have.

And that your best life ever on earth was with Jenn, whose faith and love and commitment you had 150%.

Jenn - for what it is worth - the name "Amanda" means "worthy of being loved".

Ally - eternal love. She is there.

There are no words to thank you. I pray that you have peace in your heart some day.

{{{{hugs}}}}

[Taz_Zoee]

Jennie, please do not beat yourself up over this. You did everything you could and it was out of your hands.
I know I can sit here and say this to you over and over again. I just hope you will someday know that it was the best thing and that Ally is now a happy kitty up there at the bridge.
She will always hold a special place in your heart.
HUGS to you!!!

[AmberLee]

{{{JL}}} Although I hate to read that Ally is gone, I must admit that there is a sense of relief that her suffering is over. Rest in peace, little Ally and frolic at the Rainbow Bridge.

[pitc9]

Oh Jenn... you tried SO hard and you did everything you could. You should in NO way feel like you failed her. You gave her more of a chance than most people would have.

Just as someone else said... Rest in PEACE means so much more saying it for Ally. She IS at peace now Jenn and it's because you helped her find it.
{{hugs}}
She is now at peace with everything, herself included.

Rest easy now Ally, knowing that you are loved.

You will always be Pet Talks biggest mystery that we were unable to solve.

Run free sweet girl.

[rosethecopycat]

Hold your tail high now, no more fear.

Godspeed to the Bridge, Ally
You will meet those who cared so much for you again, and get to share the Love. One Fine Day.

[catmandu]

ALLYS AT THE BRIDGE HELPING GIVE OUT THE WINGS OF SILVER AND GOLD TO ALL THE NEW ARRIVALS.
SHES LAREADY CHOSEN A RENDEZ VOUS, A FANTASTIC PLACE IN TASMANIA WHERE SHE AND HER FAMILY WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN.
ONE FINE DAY.

[Karen]

I've moved this to Pet Memorial. Jennie, you and everyone else did everything we possibly could for Ally. Now she is at peace.

[Kirsten]

I'm saddened to read that Ally is gone... I feared it might end this way, and yet I'm kind of relieved that Ally is at peace now. She was a tortured soul that probably would never have found any rest, not even as an only cat.

I'm sure, Amanda, the vet tech, did what she could and gave her all her love, and whatever it was that made Ally act full of hate towards others came now to rest, and gave her peace.

Jenn, please do not think you failed her, you did more for her than most people would have done. I'm sure she knew what you did for her, even if she couldn't show it. She may come back to you one day, and be the kitty she couldn't have been in her last life.

R.I.P., Ally, rest finally in peace.
You were loved by more people than you will ever know!

Kirsten

[AbbyMom]

Thank you, Jenn, for giving your best to her and giving her every possible chance. Thanks also to the vet tech who took in a dangerous cat.

I'm sure she's at peace now.

RIP Ally.

[Medusa]

When a friend lost his mother, another friend said to him "I'm sad for you and I'm happy for you". He explained that he, of course, he was sad that he no longer had his beloved mother with him but that he was also happy because his mother was at peace and so was my friend, who had taken care of her for many years. It was a rough road for both of them. And it was a rough road for you and Ally, Jenn. Not only did you not let Ally down, you gave her a chance that perhaps someone less patient and compassionate might not have. Try to see the situation as you and the vet tech being the persons who gave Ally a better life, both here and elsewhere. She couldn't continue the way she was; something had to change for her and, although it isn't the change you and all of us were hoping for, it was the change that she needed in order to find peace. Ease your mind, Jenn. Ally loves you and so do we.

[jenluckenbach]

Never before has Rest In Peace meant quite as much as it does now.

Ally has not been at Peace for quite some time.

While it is true that she started out life as a happy kitten, even before she came to the USA, she was a tormented soul. For reasons unkown, she would inflict pain to her humans (Julie, Jennie, Amanda).

Julie tolerated Ally because she loved her. But I KNOW Julie feared for her baby, Calista. What if Ally bit HER?
Jennie tolerated her because of a very strong sense of obligation. Jennie went above and beyond the call of duty to keep Ally safe. But it became apparent that Ally would never rejoin her family.
Amanda, even though she had no reason to take this job, tolerated Ally for at least a month. God bless her for trying. It could not have been an easy decision to put Ally to sleep. But maybe she helped all of us involved with a very hard decision.

I was saddened to hear she was gone, but I am going to be 100% honest.....I was also relieved. And everyone involved should be proud that the attempt was made to keep Ally happy. But as life often reminds us, we don't always win.

Amen.

[Freedom]

R.I.P., Ally, rest finally in peace.
You were loved by more people than you will ever know!

Jenn, please don't doubt yourself. You did so much and had so much support, prayers and input (Nancy Efrusy, vets, etc.) Ally was a unique one of a kind cat; as are all our kitties. We find it difficult to accept that we just couldn't reach her to help her the way WE wanted to. God had something else planned. Bless you for all the work you did with her.

[Randi]

Jenn, you did everything you could - and more, to try to save Ally, and it's been a long and sad journey for her and for everyone involved. I'm so sorry.

Rest in peace, Ally!