Quote Originally Posted by Vela
As reality sinks in today, I look around for my girl and she's not here. Her bed still holds her body print, I got out breakfast for three dogs...then I had to put one back. I just renewed all of her liscenses yesterday morning, they sit unused on my counter. I can't bear to move them. The floor by my chair while I work is empty. I have a hole in my heart that seems like it should stop beating too, but it keeps going, and I sit here disbeleiving that she is truly gone. It was so sudden. We had gone out that morning, been to the vets, registered her with the city, she was so excited and happy to go. I could hardly get her collar on her. SHe was a good girl, like she always is. We came home, and she happily ate part of my hamburger, played with cracker and soda a bit then i went back down to work and she came with me, and took up her usual spot by my chair. I heard what I thought was her snoring, and I resisted the urge to reach down to love her because I didn't want to wake her up, she had had a busy day. Little did I know those were her last breaths. I truend to get up and she didn't lift her head, she didn't move, she wasn't breathing at all. SHe has just died at my feet in her usual place she laid. I can't even see through my tears, as I try to type this. I keep having to stop and go back and fix it. We had been through a lot together, she was my miracle baby. SHe made it through so many things. She was so strong and never complained. I don't know what to do without her. She was my rock, always comforting, always loving, with the most soulful eyes and the biggest smile. How can she be gone so suddenly? What will I do without her.
It is so very hard to continue on without them. There will always be an empty spot for Ginger. But thankfully, our hearts are big enough to love others, along with missing our dear ones from the past. I'm so glad she had such a happy time for her last day. Very sorry you had to lose her when she was so young and it was so unexpected. And I know you don't think it now but as you look back, you'll realise you were blessed to have her pass as she did. Making that decision to take them to the vet is something I wish no one would have to experience. I don't know about others but it haunts me to this day.

Don't move anything or clean up anything until you're ready. I didn't vacuum out my car for a few months after Duke was gone. Please pm any of us if you ever need to talk. The world will seem a very cruel place for a while and you will wonder how you will go on without her. Each day, after a while, it gets a little easier.