I hate to bump this up but I was just feeling the need for that loving PT support. Need your postive vibes, need some humor and smiles.

I received my restraining order and divorce papers from Alden yesterday. Anna came to visit yesterday and I had just got the papers before she got here so I did start to read them with her but they were making me angry so I just set them aside. I should have kept reading them while she was here because I wound up getting very angry, feeling a rage come on and crying when I finally remembered I had the papers and sat down to read them last night.

They had me so upset. I know the restraining order is common practice during a divorce but it still upset me a little bit. What really got to me was the divorce papers. I was so mad and upset. I feel like it is just a bunch of lies and what little truth is in there is a completely twisted version of what he believes to be true in his head. I was just so enraged, so upset and crying like crazy. I don't like getting that way. Of course I called my parents and sobbed and yelled at them. I really really need to quit calling them. I was so upset that I woke up this morning not even remembering going to bed. I left Tori out all night and left candles burning. This is not me. I never leave candles burning and never leave my dogs out over night. I was so confused when I woke up. I don't like this feeling. It has all reminded me that this is such a long slow process and I'm so afraid of it getting the better of me. I hate all the nastiness. All the lies. I just want it over with. Why couldn't we just get a dissolution? Why did he have to turn things into something nasty? Why couldn't he just tell me the truth about that stupid woman, maybe I could have coped better if he would have just told the truth. I wish everyone knew what a huge pathetic liar he is.

I need your help, your humor and your strength.

I NEED TO SLAY THIS DRAGON!!!!

Thanks for being here and listening.

Love, Robin