Hi everyone! Sorry that it has taken awhile for me to check in. After my appt. my parents took me to the Olive Garden for some yummy food and then I came home and yakked with Anna for awhile.

Now Slick I want you to know that I am saying all of this in my deepest south central Ohio accent .

Well, I feel like my appt. with the lawyer went pretty well. I have already met with him several times and each time he seems to get tougher and tougher. My parents went with me this time and they seem to like him also. I went with this lawyer because I hear he is one of the best. I hope so because I am paying him a crap load of money..uhhh, i guess I should say my parents are paying him a crap load of money. I am going to be so in debt to my parents. Geesh! I get the feeling that he doesn't think much of Alden's lawyer. He makes it sound like she is slow and not quite on top of things so I hope that is to my advantage. I pretty much told him what I told you guys. "I want everything. I want to make that man hurt". He said he doubted I would get "everything" but that he would fight hard to get me everything he could. He seems to think I have a pretty good case. I told him everything. All about how this has sent me into a deep depression and mental illness and all my stays in the hospital. I was really worried that all of my hospital stays would hurt me but he doesn't seem to think so. Hmmm, I can't think of much else right now. I have a cold, sore throat and bad cough and feel like I'm in a big fog right now. Oh, I do have to fill out another form because we felt like I was making my monthly expenses to cheap and he wants me to include everything I can think of. Like having my hair done, or my nails or massages a memebership to the gym. All of those misc. expenses that you never think about. Including dog food and vet care. Ohhh, and my medical bills! Gotta try to get that man to pay for everything!

SLAY THE DRAGON!!!!!!

(Sorry the update took so long I had a phone call while I was trying to type this.)

Once again my dear Pet Talk friends thank you so much for all of your support!

Ohhh, I have to add that I have made it through the entired day without having a fit of rage. This is a very big deal for me. I told Anna earlier that I better hurrry up and get to bed because all it takes is one little thing to set me off and I'm gone and completely out of my mind. My therapist thinks that since I have not been able to get really angry through the past year and a half that it is manifesting and coming out in a very bad way. Gotta try to take care of that problem.

Ok, I've chatted enough. Love you all!

One more thing! I know my parents check in and read this once in awhile and I just want to let them know that I love them dearly and I'm so sorry for all of my behavior and all the pain that I have caused them. It has not been easy for my parents to watch me go through this and for them to deal with me. I don't think there is enough words to express how sorry I am for all the pain that I have caused them and I'm sure that I will probably freak out again at sometime. I will try my hardest to keep my head on straight. I LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD!!!!